Something's Going on Here
As of Friday things were going well. I was feeling great and confident that things were feeling right. Digestion was good, energy was good, weight was good. (I was down 2.5 pounds.)
In come the weekend.
I slept in Saturday and proceeded to my hair appointment at 11am. I met some girlfriends for lunch after. I ordered a side salad with a fried calamari appetizer and blue cheese dressing for dipping. Hm. Something's going on here. 4 or 5 hours later I'm headed to a party but I don't feel hungry. I'm a pescatarian so I only eat fish. To prepare for the party I call ahead to see what's on the menu and quickly realize that I need to pick up some dinner. I decide to go for collard greens and fried catfish. I think to myself, "It's Saturday... indulge a little more."
By 8pm I still wasn't feeling hungry despite the fact that I missed breakfast.
Hm.
I knew I needed more calories and didn't want to wake up hungry (and I drank some whiskey) so I ate the greens and most of 1 of the fillets. It was a party so I indulged in a small portion of cake, too. Man. Was. I. FULL.
But should I have been?
I don't think so but by the end of the evening I knew for sure that something was going on... something wrong. Sunday morning rolls in and I still feel really full. I nibbled today on little things. Again, I don't want to wake up hungry so I had a small side salad and I still feel miserably full.
About a month ago I picked up a natural laxative because I had this weird full feeling all the time no matter what ate. This feeling had become a regular part of my routine and I seems to have began soon after healing from the partial hysterectomy. Here I am again and I feel like I need it... so I took a dose and hope that after this full feeling passes that I can go back to what I was doing. Eating smaller portions... incorporating in small portions of raw nuts... including some avocado here and there... eating my daily apple earlier in the day... and still not tracking. After a few days of this I was GOOD and I'm actually excited to get back to this tomorrow.
The potential lesson? I simply just can't eat what I used to and maybe not even in small portions. Maybe ONE bite but never a full portion. I feel like I've gained the 2.5 pounds back in less than 48 hours and feels miserable. Thanksgiving is coming and this feeling is not even worth the typical glutinous activities of my favorite holiday.
In come the weekend.
I slept in Saturday and proceeded to my hair appointment at 11am. I met some girlfriends for lunch after. I ordered a side salad with a fried calamari appetizer and blue cheese dressing for dipping. Hm. Something's going on here. 4 or 5 hours later I'm headed to a party but I don't feel hungry. I'm a pescatarian so I only eat fish. To prepare for the party I call ahead to see what's on the menu and quickly realize that I need to pick up some dinner. I decide to go for collard greens and fried catfish. I think to myself, "It's Saturday... indulge a little more."
By 8pm I still wasn't feeling hungry despite the fact that I missed breakfast.
Hm.
I knew I needed more calories and didn't want to wake up hungry (and I drank some whiskey) so I ate the greens and most of 1 of the fillets. It was a party so I indulged in a small portion of cake, too. Man. Was. I. FULL.
But should I have been?
I don't think so but by the end of the evening I knew for sure that something was going on... something wrong. Sunday morning rolls in and I still feel really full. I nibbled today on little things. Again, I don't want to wake up hungry so I had a small side salad and I still feel miserably full.
About a month ago I picked up a natural laxative because I had this weird full feeling all the time no matter what ate. This feeling had become a regular part of my routine and I seems to have began soon after healing from the partial hysterectomy. Here I am again and I feel like I need it... so I took a dose and hope that after this full feeling passes that I can go back to what I was doing. Eating smaller portions... incorporating in small portions of raw nuts... including some avocado here and there... eating my daily apple earlier in the day... and still not tracking. After a few days of this I was GOOD and I'm actually excited to get back to this tomorrow.
The potential lesson? I simply just can't eat what I used to and maybe not even in small portions. Maybe ONE bite but never a full portion. I feel like I've gained the 2.5 pounds back in less than 48 hours and feels miserable. Thanksgiving is coming and this feeling is not even worth the typical glutinous activities of my favorite holiday.
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